Aš palaiminta - I am blessed

Ačiū, kad myli mane
ir rūpiniesi
mano
mažučiu gyvenimu!
Amen.
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I am blessed in so many ways,
God gives abundance

I don't say it is easy
But I am especially blessed
In the sincere care of my friends

God answers so personally
To my personal prayers
And requests

In such a touching way,
That I don't doubt
That I am precious to Him
And that He cares about my little life.

Kaip medis prie upelio - as a tree near the stream

"Palaimintas žmogus, kuris mėgsta Viešpaties įstatymą ir mąsto jį dieną ir naktį.
Jis bus kaip medis, prie upelio pasodintas, kuris metui atėjus duoda derlių ir jo lapai nevysta."

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"Blessed is the person who listens to God's law and meditates it day and night.
He will be like a tree, planted near the stream, and he will give fruits in the right time, and his leaves will never fade."

It is a quote from a psalm sang by Artūras Chalikovas, a Lithuanian Christian singer.
And the picture represents today's weather in Lithuania!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

www.orai.lt

A quote from one book I have read long time ago

,,,Prieš teisdamas kitą žmogų, septynis mėnulius pavaikščiok su jo mokasinais,,,

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,,,Before you judge a person, walk in his moccasins (shoes) for seven moons,,,

I don't remember anything more from that book, just this quote :)

When I've read it, I thought
that a week in someone else's shoes
for me would be definitely enough
to understand the person
and not judge him
anymore

It will be a long night with coffee and MS Word :)

I am grateful to God for the lesson He gives
through my current job.

I am thankful to be able to see and to know
what the people from lowest social class
experience
How they are treated and what they
are going through in job

I REALIZE HOW GRATEFUL I AM
TO MY PARENTS AND GOD
FOR THE POSSIBILITY
OF EDUCATION

The people working
in this packing company
do the monotonic job every day

and no one actually cares about the person
The constant employees are just glad to have a source of income

Thus, the employer and managers do not care and do not provide any
gloves or other items to protect yourself.

I've experienced a bit of it myself
and the woman who works there long
showed me her fingers:
THEY ARE TERRIBLE,
THEY HURT WHEN SHE PUTS THEM UNDER WARM WATER
SHE COULDN'T TOUCH ANYTHING WITHOUT PAIN
FOR A LONG TIME!

She told me there are some tasks
which are really difficult and dangerous
but the person is treated as a machine
by managers

We are talking about career and self-realization in job
but for them
job is something
you are happy to hear that this is going home time.

A picture is from www.delfi.lt - a boy playing with flowers in India

Why was I absent on church when I had to lead the service? Apie mano neatvykimą į pamokslą

Tai labai įdomi ir "paliečianti mane" istorija su kvaila pabaiga. O kvaila ji todėl, kad labai žmogiška ir natūrali. :)

It's a very interesting story. What happened truly touched me, but the ending was really silly. Silly because it is very human and natural for us. :)

Taigi, šeštadienį išvykome į Vokietiją, o sekmadienį aš turėjau vesti pamokslą. Važiavau tik su ta sąlyga, kad sekmadienio rytą užtikrintai būsiu Enschede.

Early in Saturday morning we left for Germany.
My friend knew that I must lead the service on Sunday, so he assured me that I'll come back to Enschede on time, he arranged the car and everything was well planned :)
I always feel honoured and joyful to lead the service. I was looking forward to it!
Therefore, I didn't switch places with anyone.

Bet netikėti ir neplanuoti dalykai nutiko.
Mergina, kuri mus vežė su savo mašina, ėmė karščiuoti ir pasijuto tokia pavargusi, kad nebegalėjo naktį važiuoti 5-6 valandas, kiek truktų mūsų kelionė atgal.

But unexpected things happened. The girl who drove the car and with whom we went to Braunschweig, got fever. She started feeling really bad when we reached Hannover, she didn't want any breakdance competition anymore, just wanted to sleep and rest as she felt terribly tired. We still reached Braunschweig with her. But she was definitely not in a condition to stay for 5 hour festival and be driving 6 hours home at night!!!!!

We tried to help her in every way we could, but we couldn't find any drugstore and the medical assistants didn't give her any pill to break fever. So we didn't know what to do. She didn't feel like staying at all, but she felt bad to leave me because she knew I had to be in Enschede in the morning. And we couldn't make it on time by train!!!!!!! This was the first moment I was touched that a person I hardly know is so caring not to let me down!!!

We also knew that Leimeng's friend came here by car, so Leimeng saw this as a second possibility for getting to Enschede. But when we met this guy, he didn't seem to like the idea of switching places with me and there were no spare seats... However, I felt really bad that this Chinese girl is in such a condition and she couldn't drive for sure, so I asked her to go to her friend in Germany and just sleep over. She went.

I had this voice in my head that there must be another way. That God knows that I must be in Enschede before the start of the service. I knew that He is much more majestic than I could ever imagine with my human limitations. So a name of my groupmate came into my mind, the idea that I must find Dennis. But easier said than done in a crowd of thousands.

In the end when almost everyone left, with already a bit of panic we found his friend and my groupmate: they were in the same company. Leimeng's friend didn't agree to switch places with me and there were no spare seats in those two cars of UT breakdancers :)

There was no other car I could join and with the first train I'm in Enschede in the middle of the service. So what could I do? We found out that those cars are rented, so of course, no one would like to switch their comfortable place into going tomorrow by train!!!!! You could say, I lost my hope.

Though at this moment I was speaking with Dennis, my groupmate, I would never dear to ask him such a favour. I mean, we are not friends and we didn't communicate that much. But Leimeng did that. That was the second moment I was touched how friends can take care of me!!!!!!

And the strangest thing was that Dennis agreed. The only thing he said was "if it's that important for you". He is not a Christian and he is not my friend, so he chose to spend a night in hotel together with Leimeng and travel to Enschede tomorrow by train, pay extra money for all that!!!! This was the third moment I was so touched I nearly cried. Maybe there was a drop or two, but I am not the one to show my emotions in public, so... I felt so grateful to all of them!!!

So, I thanked God and was again amazed by HIS WAY. We reached Enschede safely and on time. I was home at 7 a.m. So I put my alarm clock at 9.00 and went to bed. AND THIS IS THE SILLY PART OF THE STORY: God has delivered His promise, He took care that I am in Enschede on time, but I didn't hear the alarm clock. I must have been really exhausted as I couldn't sleep in the car and I had really intensive week & weekend.

So, when I opened my eyes I intuitively felt that something is wrong. I checked my clock and it was 11.14!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I paniced, but there was nothing i could do at this moment. I quickly sent an sms to Kim if she could lead the service if they are still waiting for me. I couldn't imagine how it goes without a leader, but luckily God has taken care of it and our sister did it for me.

She called me later and though I felt so guilty, she didn't blame me, just asked if everything was alright. And this is really godly. To love and forgive. This is how I understand a Christian family should be. It is like God, who forgives innumerable times and is our source of forgiveness...

So, this is how it goes

56 pages
It's so much easier with
X assistance

Nice to know
That I still have what to
learn

They say
Who wear red
Are self-confident

But to put it this
way, is too simple
and not totally true

They say
Blue and violet
represents wisdom and
connection with God

They do say a lot of stuff
Who? Many different
scientists, artists,
psychologists

My hands ache
My heart beats
I love silence in my room
and knowing that I am not alone

I like to work with myself :)
I like myself
And I'm learning to love...

Taigi, "breakdance" = back to breakdance

There were 15 best teams from all over the world.
The battle of the year happens once in a year, logical :)
There were even 2 Corean teams, as the last two years
it was Corea who took the first place.

The performances left big impression to me.
I especially liked thematic shows as made by the USA and Austria.
So, it was not only demonstration of their skills and various complex moves,
but also the idea what they want to convey through their dance.

For example, the USA were dressed like special agencies or ninjas and
expressed the current mood of America
full of revenge and war ideas.

Austria did it very beautifully:
their dance symbolized the birth of life on the Earth,
the occurrence of human
who had so many abilities and possibilities to create
and sustain the Earth,
but instead
ALL THEY COULD DO WAS DESTROY.

That was their main message. And it was well expressed. So, I really liked it.

The picture you see is me and Japan "hottest dancers".
They were really good, we thought Japan would enter the finals.

There was even a team from Latvia
(the only country in the world which has the same language branch as we, Lithuanians!!)

And of course, there was a team from the Netherlands,
though for the first time.

So we supported them! You see, I am becoming Dutch-Lithuanian! :)

And if you are interested,
France was the winner!

The power of nature = Gamtos galia

I am still full of impressions, but finally rested!!!!!

The nice thing was that in Hannover we found an American Indian playing and selling his band's cds.

It was the same band which charmed me with their music when I first heard them in Enschede!!!!

When you hear their music, it is as if you are carried away to some peaceful and beautiful place, untouched yet by humans...

That is their aim to bring the message of peace and brotherhood to their listeners.

So I bought their CD, called 'the power of nature'.

"Since the singing has stopped in my pulse,

And the earth and the sky refuse me,

Now must I hold by the eyes of a friend,

When the high white stars are unfriendly,

Over sweet is the refugee of trusting."

Pasaulinės "breakdance" varžybos // World breakdance competition

The sightseeing in Hannover was nice, we checked the center and Herenhuizen garten.
It was said the park has a fountain of 80 m,
but the fountains were not working, so we don't know if it is true :)

Then we bet how long is the park and tested the length by our steps...
It was nearly 1 km.
It was a beautiful trip.
With a beautiful nature.
When I was gazing through the window, I thought: "this is golden autumn".

Germany is more similar to Lithuania in its nature. So I felt a little bit at home :))

The breakdance competition was very impressive, though too noisy and smoky for me ;)
But the B-BOYS and B-GIRLS who danced were real professionals, when you look at them, it seems that they have no bones at all. They were as flexible and fast as made from rubber.
REALLY AMAZING WHAT THEY COULD DO!

Na tai va... Sooo...

Taip mes blevyzgodavome kai nebeturėdavome ką sakyti viena kitai su mano klasioke begastroliuodamos po pamokų...

-Tai va,
-Na tai va..

-Tai va...

:)

Bet šįkart aš turiu labai daug ką papasakoti, įspūdžių netgi per daug, taigi, nutariau juos surūšiuoti...
ir tvarkingai ant popieriaus (interneto) lapo sudėlioti.

Pasilikite su manim, bus įdomu.

I've had a very busy week with learning Dutch in every possible way ;), job seeking, reading for my project to find more arguments for research steps and qualitative research design and just thinking. I don't even remember what else I did, terrible!!! Ah, yes, I had an interview in Sento (the call center in the centre). They didn't contact me so far.

Taigi, buvau palaiminta pilna savaite, kupina įvairiausių darbų: mokiausi olandų kalbos, ieškojau dovanų, su daug kuo bendravau, ieškojau darbo, dirbau ties savo magistriniu ir daug mąsčiau. Kaip visada. Antradienis buvo pilniausia diena: buvau pokalbyje dėl darbo amerikietiškoje Sento organizacijoje, ėjau į olandų kalbos kursus ir į Biblijos studiją-Ulrikės tortadienį.

So, the weekend was the same, if not more busy. On Friday I went to Roel's champagne-day :) on the campus, on Saturday early in the morning we parted to Germany. Of course, I couldn't sleep in the car... I didn't feel that tired. So we made some sightseeing in Hannover, but the main goal of our tour was to attend the WORLD BREAKDANCE COMPETITION in Braunschweig. It took us more than 5 hours to reach the destination.

Efteling'as = olandiškas Disneilendas

Prieš kokias keturias savaites lankiausi Efteling'e - olandiškame pasakų ir atrakcionų parke. Gražus jis, nemažas. Rekomenduoju, nors brangus, rupūžė :) ~ apie 27 eurus. Didžiausios eilės buvo prie smagiausių atrakcionų: kalnelių su mirties kilpomis ir netgi labiau
jaudinančiais manevrais...

Dalinuosi su jumis keletu siužetų.

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The English version

Efteling is a Dutch tale & attractions park near Tilburg. Actually, you might say it is a Dutch Disneyland.

It's beautiful and interesting. It also has exciting attractions for adults
like the big swinging ship and different types of roller-coasters with death loops and even more intimidating manevres.

However, for a student it is expensive. The entrance ticket is 27 eur and you have to count the travel costs which are also not so cheap...

Pictures are taken by my friend

Mano širdis = My heart

Whom do I want to fool when I harden my heart??
Soft and sensitive heart is a gift,
but also a burden...

I am learning to live with it.
It's more difficult than having a hard
or "average" :) heart

Then you respond to the environment
very sensitively
because you feel it

And give a lot,
but get hurt a lot too
Probably a tender and sensitive heart
is more a gift for the others than yourself.

But I can't and shouldn't fool anyone.
Neither myself, nor God,
nor all who come my way...

Sometimes it seems that
it would hurt less
if I did not have such a vulnerable heart

But it's a lie from the Master of Lies
When I harden my heart, I only
turn away from my Comforter & Friend.

We are made according to God's image:
He must have a very sensitive heart
to hear and respond to everyone's cries,
to forgive us knowing
that tomorrow we will turn our hearts from Him,
as we have done so many times before;

to love us so much as to sacrifice His son.

A picture is done by Kim or Gema

Priverstinė nuotrauka // The forced picture :)

A captured picture from the international HRD conference in Amsterdam.
It is supposed to reflect the contacts we made in the conference,
but the funny fact is that we are groupmates!!!!
So, it wasn't that difficult to spot each other &
go to the workshops together :)

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Taigi, ši nuotrauka yra iš tarptautinės Žmogiškųjų Išteklių Vystymo (ŽIV???)
konferencijos Amsterdame.
Ji turėtų atspindėti kontaktus, užmegztus konferencijos metu.
Bet fotografai mažumėlę suklydo, nes
ši pora yra grupiokai,
todėl pamatyti vienas kitą ir bendrauti buvo tikrai nesunku :)

Dienos skaitinys // Reading of the day

Ef 4, 17-24

Naujas gyvenimas

"Taigi aš liepiu ir įspėju Viešpatyje, kad jūs nebesielgtumėte, kaip elgiasi pagonys dėl savo proto menkystės. Jų protavimas aptemęs, jie svetimi Dievo gyvenimui dėl savo širdies užkietėjimo. Jie surambėjo ir pasidavė juslingumui, godžiai ieškodami visokių netyrų pasitenkinimų. Bet jūs juk ne šito išmokote apie Kristų! Jūs juk apie jį išgirdote ir apie jį išmokote, kokia yra tiesa Jėzuje: PRIVALU ATSIŽADĖTI ANKSTESNIO SENOJO ŽMOGAUS GYVENIMO BŪDO, ŽLUGDANČIO APGAULINGAIS GEISMAIS, ATNAUJINTI SAVO PROTO DVASIĄ, APSIVILKTI NAUJU ŽMOGUMI, SUTVERTU PAGAL DIEVĄ TEISUME IR TIESOS ŠVENTUME."

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Eph 4, 17-24

A new life / De nieuwe levenswandel

"Dit zeg ik dan en betuig ik in de Here, dat gij niet langer moogt wandelen zoals ook de heidenen wandelen (this is really old Dutch :),
in de ijdelheid van hun denken, verduisterd in hun verstand,
vervreemd van het leven Gods om de onwetendheid, die in hen heerst, om de verhardingvan hun hart. Zij hebben zich immers in hun verdoving overgegeven aan de losbandigheid om gretig winst te slaan uit allerlei onreinheid.
Maar gij geheel anders: gij hebt CHristus leren kennen.
Gij toch van Hem gehoord en zijt in Hem onderwezen, gelijk dit de waarheid is in Jezus, dat gij, wat uw vroegere wandel betreft, de oude mens aflegt, die ten verderve gaat, naar zijn misleidende begeerten, dat gij verjongd wordt door de geest van uw denken, en DE NIEUWE MENS AANDOET, DIE NAAR DE WIL VAN GOD GESCHAPEN IS IN WAARACHTIGE GERECHTIGHEID EN HEILIGHEID."

the picture is probably from www.delfi.lt "day pictures" theme.

Lietuvos ir Didžiosios Britanijos ryšiai // The relationships between Lithuania and Great Britain

My previous article explains our close relationships with the GB. :)

Depending upon the period and historical situation,
our second language taught in schools was Russian, our third language was mainly either German, either English.
My parents generation had Russian and German.
But the following generations had Russian and English.
Being a small and rather insignificant country in the world's context
we learned to be flexible and open for other cultures,
We especially look up to the Western
Europe.
That explains why young and middle aged people
have no difficulties with English language.
As many Lithuanians are intelligent and
Lithuanian character is hard working and persistent,
it is not surprising that quite enough of them study abroad.
Our best language and looking up to Western countries
explains our choice for the UK.
Of course, prestigious names of UK universities are also
a prize we are chasing.
Thus, Lithuania and the Great Britain have established
firm scientific and economical relations,
which is joyful.
And even LKSB (Lietuvos Krikščionių Studentų Bendrija - Lithuanian Christian Student Community which became part of IFES) collaborates mainly with British students
who are coming to Lithuania as missionaries!

www.delfi.lt
Valdas Adamkus, the president of Lithuania and Elizabeth II, the queen of Great Britain

What does Elizabeth II have to do with Lithuania? // Kas sieja Elžbietą II-ąją su Lietuva?

The queen Elizabeth II has recently visited Lithuania. She was glad about the established and strengthened relations between the UK and Lithuania.

Her quote:

"We are delighted to see how fast You (Lithuania) have become from the international support receivers to the international support givers. We are fascinated how well you add to the international security issues."

From another article, the Lithuanians were called new Irish ("naujieji airiai"), because there are many Lithuanians ( many in comparison with our small population) and Irish people are very satisfied with the Lithuanians' work and character.

Though from time to time we hear about Lithuanian criminals abroad, the rate of criminality amongst Lithuanians is not bigger than the rate of any other EU country.

But returning to the point, how is Elizabeth II connected to LT, the answer is she has not only blue ;), but also Lithuanian blood, she got it from the Lithuanian Duke's Kazimieras' daughter Sofija, who married German aristocrat guy :)

www.delfi.lt

Dienos citata // The quote of the day

What one of the trainers and coaches said about me in the conference: "You look like 23, you talk like 27."

Cha, cha! :)

"Atrodai kaip 23-jų, kalbi kaip 27-ių."

Geras, ane?

Nors aš iš tikrųjų jaučiuosi labiau subrendusi nei mano bendraamžiai. Ne iš lengvo gyvenimo visa tai...

Youtube

By the way, guys, youtube, which you like so much, it seems you have a lot of congenials.

The seemingly simple youtube.com was a big innovation, expanding at an extremely rapid speed, which brought huge economic success to the developers!

Staying ahead// Būti priekyje

As I am curious & creative, I like to know the innovations & progress ?? in human life.

Thus, to the ones who did not watch discovery channel today, guess what is the record of the fastest car in the world?

I will only mention that it is called SuperSonicCar. Good luck!

My father will turn 50 this year!

I am busy now job hunting! I have checked all possibilities from bedrijvendagen and 1 from the conference. I know I have to be patient & persistent! God will put me in the right place!

And at the same time I am peacefully waiting for feedback from my ill (she is been sick for more than a week and not yet well!) mentor.

Next tuesday I go for an interview for a job.

But my father is getting 50 and my mom is getting 49. I never notice how they get old.
They change so little, just become more mature and wiser :)

The picture is made by my sister and it symbolizes learning from previous generations and learning with wisdom

Pagarbiai apie nepagarbą = respectfully about disrespect

In the first night of Amsterdam
after a busy conference and a walk

in red light district
in the youth hostel
Shelter city (you probably know),

i prayed for the women,
those women at the doors.

I contemplated
How turning their body into profession

THEY DISRESPECT MEN + THEMSELVES.
And the other way around:

MEN, WHO USE THEIR SERVICE,
DISRESPECT WOMEN + THEMSELVES.

This is against God's plan.
He wants men to respect women
and women to respect men.

It's always easy to preach :)
But then it came down to me.

And I realized that I, myself find difficulties
to trust + respect (some) men.

When I think of it, to me,
trust + respect are inseparable elements.

I can distinguish the chain of causes
Which made me suspicious of guys + men.

My disrespect is more a response to guys' disrespect towards girls + women which I've seen, heard from my good friends + relatives & which I experienced myself.

But no matter what the causes, my Shepherd wants me to respect men.
And I want it too.

Yes, God is amazing: He is sending now guys + men, who are very attentive, sincere & respectful towards me, He is teaching me that guys can be worth respect.

I think, what makes a guy/man worth respect is being a man of integrity: being reliable & humbly carrying one's duties, warmth, honesty + complete perception of who a girl/woman is.

Lastly, I have two questions:

1. Is the picture you see showing innocent game or disrespect to a guy? What do you think?

2. If you are truly honest to yourself, do you always respect guys/girls?

Sesytei /// To my sis

Už nemiegotas naktis,

Už juoką pro ašaras,
Už nepaliaujamas išdaigas,
Už nenutrūkstančią žodžių tiradą,

Už pragiedrintą vaikystę,
Už obuolį pasidalintą,
Už partizanų buveinę,
Už "tiny toon" ir "flintstones",

Už rašliavas ir dainas,
Už paslaptis, kurios saugios
Tarp mūsų,

Už tavo tiesiog buvimą šalia. AČIŪ.

Džiaugiuosi, kad tu laiminga+myliu tave!

Short, but to the point :)

Apsistačius
žaislų barikadom
Iliuzijų girliandom
Apsidabinus
Nes taip
Mažiau skauda.

Skirta mamai /// dedicated to my mom

Lėkimas.

Rūpesčių pilna galva.

Mama, pailsėk, gana.

Pilkosios ląstelės

Dirba netgi naktį.

Kai kiti (kūno nariai) miega.

Tobula

Tai, ką tavo rankos

Paliečia - kas lieka.

Žvelgiu į tave.

Ir regiu veidrody save.

Tik truputį vyresnę.

Žodžiai.

Kurių laukiam ir šykštim.

Mama, MYLIU tave.

A picture is made by me. The text is for my mother, so I will not translate.

Neringai // to Neringa

Kava. Skubūs žingsniai.
Raktas. Kava.
"Windows". Užupio radijo daina.
Klientai. Photoshop'as. Kava.
Tai tavo diena :)




Coffee. Rushing steps.
Key and coffee.
"Windows". Nice radio tune.
Clients. Photoshop.
And coffee. This is your day :)

A picture is from Egypt. I have travelled a lot through my friends ;)

Lietus + duona // rain + bread

Negali įdėti eilių į burną
Vietoj duonos riekės
Geriau nežvelgti atgal
Ir nešaukti vaiduoklių eilės

Krentant lapams ir dažant langus
Nacionalines šventes skanduojant
Ateina ir praeina lietus
Papuošdamas tavo dieną...

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You can't put into mouth
Poem lines as if bread
Better not glance behind
Don't awaken the ghosts

During fall of the leaves and paint of the wood
Feasting national days
The rain knocks and the rain goes
By enriching your ways...

A picture is probably from www.bernardinugalerija.lt
It's one of the yards in Vilnius.

Didžiulis gaisras Mažeikių naftos gamykloje / A big fire in Lithuanian oil company

There was a big fire in "Mažeikių nafta". The only and big oil plant of Lithuania.
I've never heard about such incidents happening before.
Security has always been taken care of.

"Mažeikių nafta" is a strategic object of Lithuania,
thus, it is possible that the fire
was set on purpose...

A picture from www.delfi.lt

Smalsu, ką rytdiena pagimdys // I am curious what tomorrow will bring

I am in an exciting & at the same time frightening moment. Graduating and entering the BIG WORLD OF BUSINESS :)

REkoMENduoJU = CHeck THis ouT

I am back from the conference! Back & more than well! A lot of impressions, some insights, a lot of valuable & warm & interesting communications & nice people I met! A strengthened hope on job!

But this video is not about that! :) Check it out!

http://kielas.lkb.lt/2006/10/10/apkabinsiu-nemokamai.htm

Atsiliepimai//Comments:

Vos neapsiverkiau. Dar yra meilės pasaulyje.//I nearly started crying. There is still love in the world.

Gėrio užtaisas visai dienai. Super!//The energizer for whole day. Superb!

Who can guess where I am? :)

I have finished all 4 chapters!!! Yahoo!
Now I am waiting for my mentor to get well and give me feedback on my work!

I shouldn't probably go to sleep tonight because I have to get up at 4.oo a.m. anyway!!
As I have to go to Amsterdam to the international Human Resource Development conference!

Sau = to me :)

Saugi erdvė, ne Šengeno,
apsupo, į kokoną suvyniojo.
Saulėgražų laukas nostalgiją kelia,
Mirksi akim, kviečia.

Aš pasilieku - pasilieku čia.

Kristinai / to Kristina

Mačernis V.

AŠ PAŽINAU KARALIŲ TAVYJE

Aš pažinau karalių tavyje iš žingsnių aido
ir iš akių blizgėjimo aštraus
Nors kartais jos iš tavo liūdno ir pailgo veido
man švietė giedrumu audros nuskaidrinto dangaus.

Kiekvienas tavo žodis išdidus, bet mielas,
Kiekvienas tavo mostas laisvas ir platus
Kalbėjo apie tavo didžią, gražią sielą,
Praaugusią, lyg aukštas medis girioje, visus medžius.

Nes tu sakei: "per žemę mes praeinam
tik vienąsyk, tai būkime tvirti!
kieno gyvenimas bus panašus į sodrią dainą
tas nesutirps mirty".

Todėl (nors neturėjai tu namų, kai saulė leidos,
nei sosto, nei tarnų karališkam dvare)
iš tavo liūdno ir pailgo veido
AŠ PAŽINAU KARALIŲ TAVYJE.

My Christian duty Mano krikščioniška pareiga

Aš vis dar rašau savo magistrinį, bet tai ne vienintelė mano pareiga :)

Pabudau. Šiandien lijo. Turėjau eiti į parduotuvę, nes rytoj jos neveikia. :)

Nutaikiau sausą momentą ir į lauką prasmukau. Apsiprekinau, grįžau namolio. Ir tą pačią akimirką, kai atsidūriau kambaryje, lietus ėmė pliaupti kaip pasiutęs, tarytum laukdamas tos saugios akimirkos, kai atsidursiu viduje. :)

Po truputį ieškau darbo, nes baigėsi "piginai". :)

Geros naujienos visiems lietuviams, kuriuos domina darbas Olandijoje: kadangi mes priklausom Europos Ekonominei Zonai, mums nebereikia darbo leidimo kaip anksčiau. Mes galime dirbti kiek norime, tik pirma, reikia gauti darbą :)

Gauti Olandijoje darbą reikalinga dažniausiai olandų kalba.

Taigi, dabar aš lankau olandų kalbos kursus (pagaliau...) ir niekaip negaliu jais atsidžiaugti.

Nuo pirmadienio iki trečiadienio dalyvausiu tarptautinėje žmogiškųjų išteklių konferencijoje, taigi, jaudinantis momentas ir tikiuosi išnaudoti šią galimybę kontaktų užmezgimui :)

O dabar apie tą pareigą... Kalbėjau su Kristina ir kaip ji šiom dienom susidūrė akis į akį su mirtimi. Aš ir panašiai, tik ne taip akivaizdžiai. Mano grupiokė iš Kenijos gimdydama mirė. Paliko vyrą su keturiais vaikais. Kita moteris iš mūsų bažnyčios taip pat prarado vyrą ir nors aš jos nepažįstu, aš pažinau skausmą jos akyse. Taigi, visi šie įvykiai man priminė mirties aktualumą ir Šventojo Rašto žodžius: "budėkite, nes Tėvo karalystė ateis netikėtai kaip vagis".

Taigi, aš supratau, kad turiu gyventi šiandien taip, kad būčiau pasiruošusi sutikti Kristų bet kurią akimirką.

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In short, I have duties as a student and an adult. I have duties as a daughter, a sister and a friend. These are duties we share with nonChristians as well.

Furthermore, my groupmate Liz has died and left a husband, 3 children & 1 newborn. You probably knew her, she used to come to ITC church while she was in NL. So it's a catastrophe for her family. And they are Christians, so we can not understand God's plan. But we shouldn't question it.

But to me, it indicated the need to look at myself and my life. If I die tomorrow, will I be prepared to meet Jesus?

There are some lines in the Bible: "Be on guard as God's kingdom comes unexpectedly as a thief."

In conclusion, I realized that I must live my life today so that I can meet Christ at any minute and say: "Yes, Lord, I have done everything I could for You & within You."

Thus, it includes every day decisions and using your/my time & energy wisely.

What's new in my invisible :) world? Kas naujo mano dvasiniame pasaulyje?

Peace & joy returned...

But I am changing as the tree in the autumn, getting his leaves red, yellow, brownish red and orange. Check the autumn in Lithuania: it's very beautiful!!

So, I am changing. It's a never ending story...

A picture made by Andrew

What's new in my visible :) world? Kas naujo mano materialiame pasaulyje?

Today I have found out that my verblijfsdocument allows me to work without any restrictions.

I don't need any work permit document. Even as a student I can work as many hours as I can!

Also today I received an answer from Sento. My 3 hour online assessment resulted in invitation for an interview on the 17 of October!

This is a job not of my profession, but for fast money before I find the job, suitable for me.
So, this job would be of big help to me now!!!

A picture is from my Bachelor diploma handing ceremony in the church of Vilnius university.
It's the oldest university in East Europe! And it's very nice that its buildings have a church! The story beyond it is that at first it was jesuits' gymnasium!

Today = Šiandiena

All four chapters are written.

But the third and the fourth I must elaborate deeper, so I am still working on these aspects before I send them to my supervisor.

My reflection: october and even the same days in october are career days (bedrijvendagen) in Lithuania and in the Netherlands. Nice coincidence, ha?

This is the first year in Lithuania when they propose virtual career days. I think, it's a nice idea because you can check out the current status of many companies online. And all in one place, you don't have to work a lot :)

So, you can get acquainted with the company, current vacancies, ask them questions and apply for the job: all online! Real internet age!

Groetjes,
Lora

The picture shows spring in Lithuania and me, coming back from work.

GERA TURĖTI NAMUS = it is good to have home

It is good to have where to return no matter in what part of the globe I am now.

On Sunday enjoying good weather I went to the park and saw people playing with their dogs.

From my childhood we used to have dogs, I was mainly the one taking care of them, or I and my sister.

I wish my dog could be with me :)

Another part of my family which I miss is shown in the picture: our "queen" and our "martyr" :)

My family is always there for me = mano šeima yra mano užnugaris

Maybe you have a warm and supportive family. Then I am happy for you.

But my family was not always what I needed or how I imagined family should be.

Thus, many times I felt misunderstood by them and left alone. As if they were not on my side.

But I understand more and more that they DO STAND FOR ME: ESPECIALLY MY MOTHER & MY SISTER.

They love me the imperfect way they can, but they are always there for me. It's not friends, but family who stays with you all your life.

I understand more & more how grateful I am to have a family! How grateful I am for what they HAVE DONE FOR ME! AND HOW THEY SUPPORT ME NOW!

I'll be coming back for Christmas this year.
I love my family with my imperfect love
and I miss them.

Esame gera komanda = We are a good team ;)

I am satisfied with my work. I am busy & peaceful in one. I and God - we are a good team.

Thank You, Lord, for giving me an opportunity to use my talents
and glorify Your name!

In a picture you see 1/3 of my room in my parents' house.
The picture is taken before my leaving to the Netherlands after Christmas.

Update file

My university mentor got sick.

Thus, we didn't meet today as planned.

I have got valuable feedback on chapter 2.

I continue working on chapter 3.

Success to all of you with your study duties!

:) LoRa (:

If you can't blow the fire, swallow it! :) Jei negali užpūsti liepsnos, praryk ją :)

What you see is the event in China during the current national festivities.

A picture is from www.delfi.lt

A short story inspired by a legend of my town Vilkmerge

On the hill in the meadow surrounded by forest a day was ending.
A girl built a fire. She was warming up. Her sisters left for the town.
In her singleness she could enjoy the true moment amazed by the beauty of everything touched by God's hand.

Stars were falling and stars were standing. A girl nursed the fire. Another precious mystery: fire.

Her sisters didn't return. It was darkening. Something appeared in the bushes. Something there was alive. Alive, but not trees or bugs or bats.

This "something" surrounded the girl. The girl didn't see, but like most of the girls she could feel the danger when it is approaching. She looked around and for a moment she thought she caught red eyes staring into her.

She was surrounded by wolves who followed her every step from the ambush.

The girl ran out of the wood and the fire died.

The wolves came out of the bush.

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The wolves left. The girl remained... Alive and totally unharmed.

:)

A picture is borrowed from Joe.

As Christians we must always be on guard

Becoming a Christian is probably the beginning, not the end of difficult trials.

And this is firstly, because our sinful nature stays, thus, we are vulnerable to our sinful desires and habits.

Secondly, because satan wants to separate us from God and has a very effective toolbox for this purpose.

From what Ulrike has learned in her studies, the two common tools used by satan are:
1. to make us believe that satan does not exist.
2. to exaggerate his existence, thus, to make him bigger than he is.

Still he has a lot of seemingly "innocent" tools.
What I have experienced from my & other lifes' is that satan is very smart: he comes in unnoticed through our broken parts, he exactly knows our weak points.

Therefore, as Christians we have responsibility to examine ourselves, and to know not only our strengths, but also weaknesses. So that we would be prepared when the trial comes.

Even to know our weaknesses is a challenging task: everyone wants to be strong & perfect, isn't it so, guys? ;)

Still accepting your weaknesses is even a more complicated task, requiring a lot of courage & trust in God's mercy.

In conclusion, my last scan detected spiritual threats and neutralized them. Till the next scan :)

A picture is done by someone in IFES conference.

Just to keep you updated & myself alerted :)

My thesis consists of 4 chapters.

1. introduction - done;
2. conceptual framework - done;
3. research design - started;
4. conclusions and recommendations - started.

I will do my best, but ->
Please join in prayer that I would finish in time.

I SIMPLY MUST GRADUATE THIS MONTH.

A picture shows diploma handing ceremony in the church of my university.

A poem I came across called "A woman's question" by Lena Lathrop

I thought to put this poem in the blog as it represents a lot of truth and can be a reminder to all my sisters how precious and priceless woman's heart and love is.

The poem

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above?
A woman's heart & a woman's life, -
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With a reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks & your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton & beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you are wanting for socks & shirts -
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that His Maker, God
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."

I am fair & young, but the rose may fade,
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I REQUIRE ALL THINGS THAT ARE GRAND AND TRUE,
ALL THINGS THAT A MAN SHOULD BE;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you can not be this, a laundress & cook
You can hire & little to pay;
But a woman's heart & a woman's life
Are not to be won that way.

You are welcome to share your comments

World's record: longest finger nails!!

Lee Redmond from Utah at the age of 65 has entered Guiness record book as the person having longest nails. It says that her nails reach 7 meters, which is quite unbelievable when you look at the picture.

When I saw the picture, my question was: How can you live with such long nails? How do you sleep? how do you put your clothes on? How do you do anything with hands?

Why would people do such crazy things?
Because probably deep inside we all want to prove our value, we all want that our lifes would have more meaning than just living. We all want to be important and if you don't find another way, you try to get into the weird Guiness book! :)

A picture is from www.yahoo.com

Where are you , Joe?

I wonder where you have vanished. Your weblog has disappeared and you also. What are you busy with? How are you, anyway?

A picture is taken by Joe

Iedereen heeft nodig voor gebed, ik ook - mums visiems reikia maldos

Thus, folks, these are the results of my work:

1. finished application for a job - waiting for results
2. booked a hostel and prepared for the conference
3. signed in bedrijvendagen
4. completed chapter 2 and almost completed chapter 1 of my thesis

Where do I stand now?

1. Today's sermon helped me to understand that I am in the spiritual war field, I've been fighting the battle already for some time.

Signs of caution

1. One brother at the church told me: "You are so passive today."
2. We clashed with Jan Vervoort and I spilled the chocolate milk on him and myself.

The explanation

1. Preacher told us today: "The reality consists of two worlds: the visible, material and invisible, spiritual world". I have heard it before and I know it, yet...
2. What happens in the spiritual-invisible world influences the material-visible world.

The consequences

1. To be honest, I was losing the battle.
2. I became passive and focused on myself.
3. I believed in lie that God does not really care about what I want.

A pic is done by me