A song in every rainbow = Daina kiekvienoje vaivorykštėje

There is a song in every rainbow...
a hope in every ranging storm
laughter in the cold, pouring rain <--the Netherlands :)
a new love in every pain.

There is a song in every rainbow...
a joy in every aching heart
a twinkle in every tearful eye
a lingering smile in every goodbye.

There is a song in every rainbow...
a warmth in every cold winter night
a peacefulness in every troubled mind
a walk away to leave sad memories behind.

From Sunny to me

The last dinner with Sunny (pre-pre-pre-X-last with Kim :)

On Thursday I cooked
and Sunny with Kim came

So, we filled our stomachs
and our hearts
with nice memories
of the blessed times
we shared

Sunny gave us nice presents
guess what? ;)
and
I don't say "goodbye"
I say "see you, Sunny"

One day I & Kim will visit you
in the Philipines!

Safe journey and joyful time back home!

Less nerves, more luck :) = mažiau nervuokis, daugiau pasieksi

Wednesday was "een heel druk dag". I was thinking how to improve the agreed part of thesis and had to communicate about the conference. Then together with Kim we went to Sunny's presentation.
CONGRATULATIONS, SUNNY!

After I came back and had dinner with my flatmates (by the way, our technical flatmate fixed the doorbell - FINALLY WE CAN HEAR IF YOU RING!), I had to apply for the job. So, I had to renew my CV, find the references, bla bla bla.

The online assessment for the job took 3 hours!!!! It contained personal information, a personality test of 178 questions, parts from IQ tests with mathematical sequences, word associations and nice mathematical exercises :)

So I had chance to remember how I miss mathematics!

As at this time I feel time-pressure, at night I worked on my thesis. But I was tired, so I didn't do much.

Next day when I opened the website to check out the status of my application, I saw that my data are gone, that means I HAVE TO REDO THE WORK OF 3 HOURS!!!!!

I felt so frustrated, especially because it was uneasy and time consuming, while I have to focus on other things as my thesis, the coming conference and Dutch courses.

As if it was not enough, while changing weblog's layout, I made a total nonsense and didn't know how to fix it.

Then I received a feedback from my company's mentor and she is again being touchy.
I hate it when she becomes too personal, it's work that we are having, but she starts like:
"I feel this & that, I don't like this & that..." And I think then, well, I also don't like some behaviour of yours, so what? I try to work with you, so please be as kind as try to work with me.

Again, her comments are contradictory to my understanding of what is good in that chapter of my paper.

So you can imagine how frustrated I got after all these events concerning that time is ticking!

Then I prayed a lot and read and thought about things and with a peaceful mind I could accomplish more things for my thesis than I intended. That felt good.

I wrote an e-mail to the employment director and he said that some results are saved, so I just have to do the last part. That was good.

Finally, I found the problem & fixed my weblog. I even could have some rest!

So, the stones have moved :)

Then I received nice & wise letters from several friends and finally got the refund for my trips to Utrecht. Right on time!

Then the contact person from the conference gave me all the necessary information and I could book a hostel in Amsterdam.

In conclusion, everything goes smoothly, when you take your glance away from worries to God...

A picture is taken by me in Brugge

A small operation reflecting a much bigger one

Yesterday I operated my flower.
I saw that some branches are rotten.

You have to cut the rotten or otherwise infected branches to save the rest of the plant.
My plant used to be so beautiful, with a lot of yellow-orange blooms. The only branch that remained after the operation looks so lonely now, but I hope I can still save the plant.

It hurt to cut the plant, it is alive, reflecting the beauty of God's creation and it is mine.
I feel my fault not taking care of it properly.

While operating the plant, I remembered God's words that He is like a gardener, cutting our fruitless branches and caressing for the fruitful branches.

And I understood that what I am doing to my plant now, God is doing to me now.

It hurts the plant, it hurts me. But I know and hope and TRUST!!!!!!!!!!!!
I pray that God would give me strength and wisdom, peace and joy to overcome this operation...

After all, I believe in His perfect promise to make me blossom, to have my share in His plan.
I try to trust that while I serve & am learning to love Him, He will not forget my needs and pure desires.

"Blessed are the pure in heart, -Christ said,
For they will see God" (Mt 5:8).

Help me to be righteous, Father,
Guide me with Your spirit,
Cleanse me and make me pure again,
Teach me to enjoy the gift of singleness!

ThE NoTeBoOk PaInTeD WiTh TaSkS

The notebook painted with tasks to accomplish
Reading and thinking
That reminds of the early days
Having a conversation with God
A comforter, strengthener, the closest friend.

Linking, arranging, analysing
Understanding, creating
all in one goes in my thesis
I fulfill myself
But it's a lot of work
and my other duties
Days run
with caring for others
and serving them

Stop
Care more for yourself
LOVE & PROTECT YOURSELF
You are not the only one, Cha,
who cries out for love

We all do
at a certain point
BUT GOD IS IN CONTROL

GOD HAS SOMETHING BETTER FOR US

THE QUESTION IS:
DO YOU TRUST HIM?

DO YOU TRUST HIS TIMING?

A shark with full stomach is friendly = Sotus ryklys nepuola

www.delfi.lt

Experimenting with colors...

Another way to avoid working on my thesis :)

No name = Bevardis

If I am truly honest to myself, it's difficult to trust God... Sometimes...

In some cases...




A picture is from Aiste's blog, I believe :)
Corfe castle, UK

Autumn and I = ruduo ir aš

Autumn always brings some kind of sadness to me. Maybe the better word is nostalgia, sometimes knowing, sometimes not even knowing what for.

Ruduo visuomet mane apdovanoja liūdesiu, gal teisingiau, nostalgija. Ilgesiu kažko... O ko ilgiuosi, kartais pati nežinau.

As a rule, my summers are full of adventures, full of travelling, friends, new people and experience. When autumn comes, it drifts away and silence comes.

Dažniausiai mano vasaros būna perpildytos bendravimu, kelionėmis, draugais, pažintimis, naujais įspūdžiais. Ruduo padeda tam tašką. Atneša ramybę.

Autumn breaks in without knocking at the door and changes fullness of the harvest into emptiness. It's my time for contemplation and reconciliation.

Ruduo įsiveržia be perspėjimo ir nusineša derliaus pilnatvę palikdamas tuštumą. Tai mano apmąstymų, susitaikymo ir sustojimo metas.

I love autumn, especially with painted falling leaves. I already miss the colours of autumn and falling leaves...

Aš jau pasiilgau krintančių lapų ir rudens paletės. Aš myliu rudenį. Šios spalvos man primena nerūpestingai laimingas akimirkas, kai kartu su Egle spalvindavome spalvinimo knygutes arba pieštukus naudodavome visai ne pagal paskirtį...

Farewell to Ratna & Chris: sad & happy in one

I AM HAPPY FOR YOU BOTH, SORRY, THREE!

AND ALSO SAD TO LET YOU GO!

KEEP IN TOUCH.

LORA

Solo :)

Nadya's presentation / Nadia pristato savo magistrinį

I have recently hunted the pictures...
Oh, Nadya, I am happy for you and I envy you :)
Because you can sleep calmly now :)

Rekomenduoju aplankyti = Recommendation - visit Dierenpark in Emmen

Gelbėkit nuo šio triukšmo = save from the noise :)

Kaip jums tai patinka?
Jūros vėplių pasirodymas Tokijuje.

Vienas pučia dūdą, kitas groja mobiliu,
O trečias apsikęsti negali :D

$$

How do you like it?
It's a demonstration in Tokyo.

One sea-cow is playing the pipe,
Another is calling with the mobile,
The third, poor one can't stand it anymore :D

A picture is from daily pics in www.delfi.lt

Esu kas esu = I am who I am

Aš neneigiu, esu netobula;
Ir tuo džiaugiuosi :)
Bet esu graži savo buvime
Tokia kokia esu...

...ŠŠŠ...

I don't claim I am perfect
Thanx God, I am not ;)
But I am beautiful
In who I am...

A picture is done by I don't know whom

The wasp in a glass of honey = Vapsva medaus stiklinėje

Saugokitės, kad net geri dalykai kurių siekiate,
netaptų jums spąstais...

##~@~##

Be aware that even the good things you strive for,
wouldn't trap you...

A pic is borrowed from www.delfi.lt -> Day pictures

I pray for peace in the world = meldžiuosi už taiką ir ramybę

A picture is from www.delfi.lt

What's the choice = Ką pasirinkti?

Tomorrow invites me with three, if not more options with whom & what to do. Wow, it has been a headache to choose, but now I chose: I will join my Russian and Chinese friends and travel to some zoo & some castle.
***
Rytojus siūlo man mažiausiai tris variantus, ką veikti. Labai sunku buvo kažkam atsakyti 'ne' ir pasirinkti vieną pasiūlymą. Bet apsisprendžiau: važiuosiu su rusais ir kiniečiais į zoologijos sodą sunkiu pavadinimu ir į kažkokią tvirtovę.

A picture is taken by Joe? I believe...
A good paparazzi ;)

Kūrinijos grožis ir įvairovė = the beauty and variety of creation

Dažytieji gandrai - the coloured storks found in Delhi






Didnosė beždžionė -
the big nose monkey


It always amazes me
The beauty and variety of creation

Kūrinijos grožis ir įvairovė
Visuomet mane stulbina

Ups, forgot to tell: pictures are from www.delfi.lt

Gynybinė siena = Walls have fallen

Some walls are destructive, separating people,
Some walls are protective & necessary
Therefore

I am good at having no destructive walls
and caring for people
without selfish motives

But I am worse at building and
maintaining the necessary walls

My protective walls have fallen
The same as Vilniaus protective wall
Guarding the beautiful castle
Which is destroyed by never
ending wars

Vilnius protective wall, the capital city of Lithuania
A picture is made by me.

A sinful dance. Nuodėmingas šokis

Beautiful to look, ha?
This is Brazilian samba.

But the thing is that the girl is almost naked and her moves are really seductive.

So, this dress and dance generates lust in guys and increases their perception of a girl as an OBJECT OF SATISFYING THEIR SEXUAL NEEDS.

The girl, who agrees to play this role,
more and more perceives the power of her body
on guys
and can start manipulating guys.

It can give a good feeling,
a feeling of power for some time.
But it is so fake,
she will never be happy with that.

Conclusion: you can't find true happiness
within sin.

###

Išvada: nerasi tikro džiaugsmo nuodėmėj.

A picture is from www.delfi.lt

Kas yra mano draugai? Who are my friends?

Labai trumpai: nebeskirstau draugų į geriausius ir gerus. Tie laikai praėjo.
Bet kai žmogus pamina tavo pasitikėjimą, aš vis labiau įsitikinu, kaip sunku yra jam tą pasitikėjimą atgauti.

O gal ir nebūtina. Kai kurie santykiai yra nereikalingi, žlugdantys ir skaudinantys. Jei neįmanoma susitaikyti ir grįžti į gerbimo ir pasitikėjimo stadiją, turbūt tokių santykių reikia atsikratyti.

Taigi, aršios gyvenimo pamokos, bet aš kreipiu savo žvilgsnį į Viešpatį.
Mokausi būti dar atsargesnė nei buvau.
Ir tikiuosi, kad kaip vakarykštėj giesmėj
"Viešpats pakeis mano skausmą džiaugsmu".

:) :) :)

To be honest with you, the times when I was dividing "this is the best friend and this is just a friend" have passed. Now I just live, I just take & give what is there. But sometimes I have to reconsider who my friends are. Don't worry, the ones who are in the picture, are my friends! :)

When a person takes you for granted and breaks your trust, it is very difficult for him to regain your trust again.

And maybe it is not necessary, you just learned a lesson that you should be more careful
even though I thought that I am careful enough

to choose friends & not rush to open myself
Some lessons are harsh: this is life :)
But holding to the song we sang yesterday
"God turns my mourning into dancing"
...

A picture is taken by Gema or Roxana in Brugge

On the wings of the Spirit - high & low can strike you simultaneously..

What I am experiencing once more is
that actually
at the times
when you are most down
you can be most up
in your spirit
...

www. loreta.com :) Vilnius sights

The place in Vilnius where thousands of Jewish were killed

By Nazi.
I always feel not nice
When I am passing this place

Well, we can not erase history
We better learn from it
...

Please pray for my project & me / Melskitės už mane ir mano magistrinį

Een gezellige plekje in Vilnius

Done by me

I miss Vilnius & what I left there...

Strange! Why are they so blank?
The quality was not that bad!!

The brightness was good on the normal pictures & CD...

Ok, these are the pictures I took for my foreign friends, mainly Dutch: Christine, Wiljan, Marcel.

Vilnius - my city

Sorry, Tadas was rushing while scanning

Pictures done by me
with my soap-holder
not a camera :)

Sometimes like today Kartais kaip šiandien

Sometimes like today I want to ordinary be

Not to feel so deep
Not to sense so much

Maybe then I wouldn't feel so lonely

And enjoy life fully

Today I failed

A pic is taken by me in Brugge long time ago

Vienintelei sesei pasalulyje / to the only sister in the whole wide world

Būk palaiminta šiandien ir visada,
PALAIMINTA REIŠKIA TIKRAI LAIMINGA
Su tort-šampan-džiaugsma-dieniu!!!!
~~~~~~~***~~~~~~~
Be blessed today & always
BLESSED MEANS TRULY HAPPY
wIth cAkE-cHaMpAgNe-jOy-dAy!

A pic is taken by our MOTHER
in Artis zoo

A stream from Discovery channel :) Šiek tiek srovių iš atradimo kanalo...

Living within God is movement is constant change sometimes easy sometimes deep & painful accompanied by resistance

But at moments
when I feel weak
and vulnerable
and confused
what is happening
and why

He touches me
To the very deep
and tells
WE ARE ONE
so you are never weak nor alone
I LIVE IN YOU, YOU LIVE IN ME
so whatever I am, you are becoming
WHATEVER POWERS I HAVE, YOU CAN USE THEM
I just don't know them yet
or don't know how to use them

But what I have discovered
is that He loves me
So much
And knows my very secret needs
Thus, through all the storms
I can peacefully rest

"...Don't cry, Lora,
You are more taken care of
Than you
see or know
You have more powers
than you know..."
***
A picture is from New Year Eve (2005) in my ex-student house
It was a thematic & very funny evening with my good friends

Tik tiems kurie supranta lietuviškai ;) Sorry - discrimination (only for native speakers:)

Aš sau meluoju. Sam'as miega krėsle, ar krėslas miega jame?
Aš bėgu į priešingą pusę nei noriu. Užverda arbata, vadinasi, elektra atsirado...

Tikra tiesa, ką sako Frailio knyga atversta:
Gyvenimas su Juo ir Jame
Pastovus tapimas,
Judėjimas, makalavimasis,
skridimas ir nuopolis

Visa susivynioja į viena
It siūlų kamuolys

Ar bežinosiu lietuvių gramatiką
Po dešimtmečio svetur
Užsieniečio vyro
Ir darbo kolektyvo anglų kalba?

O kol kas rožių kvapas sklando svetainėj
Tebepučia į ūsą Sam'as
nereaguodamas į jokį garsą,
išskyrus mano pėdos žingsnius
(jis jaučiasi saugus)

Sumuštas rekordas
dešimt per metus
O aš vis skaisti
ir dar atradau
Kad iš tiesų niekad NEMYLĖJAU
tikro vyro
nes niekad jo nepažinau

Arbatą pakeičia kava
Juk reik kaip nors užmušti laiką
Kai mintys ir jausmai
pripildo
molekules oro

Ta nežinia, tie posūkiai staigūs svaigina
Kas jis bus?
tas, kurį mylėsiu
ir kuris mane mylės

Nors turbūt jau yra
Paslapčia
...

Composition done by me
It's one of my favorite places when I wanted some peace
There is a pond on one side of the tree and the streamVilkmergėlė on the other side

Picture done by my sis Dovilčikas in Ukmergė

There are some other interesting things happening

Yeah, there are, but I won't tell you ;)

It's just true what is written
when Lord says
'I will give you plenty of life!'

^` ^`^
'Duosiu jums gausiai gyvenimo'
Sako Viešpats,
tai jau tikrai

Būtent tai ir išgyvenu

Ir darkart įsitikinu,
kad Jis girdi mane
Nes atsako
Veiksmais
per žmones atsako
Į mano raudą ir maldą
:)

To be continued (tęsinys) - as in movies ;)

Some time ago I also started swimming once a week, it is nice to have a friend and more fun to go there not alone

And now Kim also wants to join ;)
You are most welcome, Kim!

I really love some active activities!!
Yesterday I was having dinner at Li
And it was a surprise to find out that she likes badminton
The same as me
And every thursday we can go to play on the campus for free

So, this time I was really blessed with dinners at my friends' places
Free concerts & activities in the centre
Just enjoying relaxation
And no rush, no thought
No stress

The people who promised to participate in my interviews
But disappeared for a long time
Just appeared last week
So I could do fruitful interviews

We have also had several 'kijkavonds'
And Werner left
So now we are having a new flatmate
I am interested how it will be.

Two friends of mine had their presentations of final thesis and got diplomas
So it was exciting to be there with them
And celebrate, of course

Finally, for the first time in my life I went to karting!!!
I loved it!!!!

And for the first time this year we visited disco
'Lunatic'

In conclusion, I am full of
enjoying life
and impressions

And I have to go back to my thesis ;)~

magnolia from the near - picture taken by me

It's an interesting time.. Įdomus metas..

As you can understand, I have had short, but fantastic vacation in UK: I enjoyed seeing my friend, I enjoyed new environment & British accent ;)


After I have sent the elaboration on my theory (just 40 pages :) on 14 of August & received the feedback from my mentor that I had done a great job, I hardly did anything for the project...

My mind just needed some rest :)

So I just enjoyed the end of summer, went to Latin America Days in Amersfoort with Christine, oh, we enjoyed ourselves a lot there!!!!!

We especially liked the more jazzy modern Cuban music played for gratis on the streets :)))

I have seen the side of Christine I didn't know so far, she also saw unknown side of mine, so it was some nice discovery & we agreed that we are good partners in havinng fun & dancing ;)

Then I slept at her place in Nijmegen and visited her church on Sunday, it was nice to communicate with her friends and have nice chats... The rain disturbed our planned visit in Nijmegen, but it was enough of impressions...

A picture done by me in Enschede - this is one type of magnolia - the plant I like a lot