My family, I guess, is just as many others.
I miss them, but 2 days with them is more than enough.
Sad, cruel? Yes, I know.
I do try, I do my best. I wish not to have heart,
not to be so sensitive, but I am.
It's so difficult to accept and understand that I
as many other children do not know what it is to be welcome.
I prayed a lot for them and myself.
What I see is that they are not bad people in general,
they can be very sensitive to the others,
but not to each other or us / children.
There is so much disrespect, anger,
shouting, blaming and criticising
every day
and so little
understanding, love and sensitivity to each other.
Devil is getting me through my closest people.
It can be so hard to pray at home.
I am weak. So I have rest and peace in my small
room in Enschede.
At the moment I have no "homier home".
04 01 2007
2 comments:
Tu tikrai ne viena sitame isbandyme. As irgi po poros dienu praleistu namie noriu grizti i savo maziuka kambariuka Vilniuje:) Beje, siandien pakalbejau su tavo mama, nes pasirodo kazkaip praklausiau, kada tu grizti i Lietuva ir vakar tau skambinau:) Viskas dabar jau issiaiskinta;)
O, Kristinute uzsuko! Jo, zinau, kad daugelis kencia si isbandyma, nuo to sis kryzius nepasidaro lengvesnis :)
Bet yra daugybe budu, kaip sia problema spresti, ypac kai jau turi savus namus ;) stai sian taip smagiai pasportavom su drauge ir zinojimas bei jautimas, kad nebutinai tevai, bet kiti zmones dziaugiasi tave matydami ir brangina tave, labai padeda. Nes kad ir kaip ten butu, vien Dievo meiles mums neuztenk, ane? ;)
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