The "broken" testimony

I wanted to share with you, bro&sis,
maybe it will help any of you :)

My heart is rejoycing now,
It is jumping to the skies,
Guess why? ;)

Because God has healed me
And set me free from the claws of darkness...

To be more precise,
this Saturday I was totally down
Out of nowhere
Bum from the sky

I got up
Without any wish
I had to focus on my project
I couldn't

I didn't care
About anything nor anyone
Such a terrible feeling
So not me

I ate, but the food had no taste
I drank, but it didn't fill my thirst

I asked friends to pray for me
I wrote some poems in Lithuanian
I received some response

And it started getting better
Inner joy and peace slowly came
Accompanied by this magical feeling
Unspoken feeling that
God is in control

Then I understood
Why and how darkness reached me
And I prayed a lot
And asked the Holy Spirit to work in me
and help me to forgive
the people
to whom I thought I've already forgiven
But I was wrong

So this is what I learned;
If it still hurts
If you still feel hatred or indifference towards
the person that hurt you
You didn't really forgive

And God set me free
I forgave the people
In the prayer
I could feel so light
As my physical burden would be taken away
And I could care for them again

...Because I do care...

...Thank you all, who help me to grow...

Picture from bernardinu gallery