WAiTiNg FoR tHe LoRd

I woke up today... Empty... Coffee, jumping into the clothes, rushing out for there are so many matters... To accomplish I must... To accomplish I must... But somehow there is no will, there is no drive to start what I must. And really, must I? I open the curtains of my window, my mirror of the world... What do I see?

... I shout from delight! As if God knew what I needed most... What would my heart find joy in! Indescribably elegant, indescribably handsome snowflakes as thick as the cookies, as dense as the clouds fall down on the earth. "My gift for you!" - I hear in the air, I hear in my ears, all around, but mostly inside. Deep in the heart the voice touches. Lord comes and stays with me.

Together we sit in the room, together we look through the window. In his embrace I cry and I laugh.
-I brought the snow for you, - He says, - I know, you love when it snows so densely. I know, you love watching snowflakes dancing and playing in the snow. Like in childhood.
-Oh, you remember? - I ask in surprise.
-Surely I do. I was with you. Do you remember?
-A little bit. I suspected that. - I bow down my head and the tear appears from nowhere.
He touches my cheek and gently takes my tear into His blessful hand. There is no need for words because I know what He will say. And He knows what I will ask. And He answers from His big big heart into my little little one. Then He shows me the world and explains:
-The grey woman sitting under the tree has recently lost her son. The bearded man in that yellow car has just lost the meaning in life. Do you see?
-Yes, - I replied.
-Do you remember now what we talked about twelve years ago in the candle light?
-Yes, - I perfectly knew what He meant.
-Remember, you asked me two questions 'why' and 'how'?
I nodded in silence for now I know. Sometimes it's much simpler than I think. Than we do. Still humans have tendency to make things more complicated than they are, aren't we? And I just sat surrounded in His big strong arms and let the matters of the day pass by. And I understood. I was THE APPLE IN HIS EYE. Straight from the start, straight from the day in my mother's womb, I AM AND I WILL BE the apple in His eye in the womb of time...

P. S. It didn't stop snowing "clouds" for three days, but even when it stopped, God didn't abandon me.